So much went on that I forgot about Xanga.. eeeekk -_- Anywho, everything changed for the better I feel like myself back then;free. I felt trapped with him couldn't do anything. Looking back I just can't believe I let the relationship get to how it did. I should have ended it two years ago, I should have listened to the people around me. But it is what it is.

Enough of that. Fall semester has started (well it's been 4 weeks) and I'm stressing so much already!! I remember before the semester begun I was so anxious for it to begin so I could start my new classes but now I want it to end. I guess it's the combination of classes that I enrolled in. It's tough taking Math along with English. So it's killing me. Math takes up all my time. I dread walking into math class everyday...

Something else, I met this one guy on Jtv (online) in June. I wasn't interested at first, he was. He kept talking to me, and I did too but just as friends (although he wanted more out if it). Fast forward, I developed feelings for him because of the way he talks to me, the words he uses are just so soft, perfect and he has a sense of humor (a plus); makes me laugh and smile the whole day. I've never felt the way he makes me feel, not even when I was in that five year relationship. He's truly something different. The problem is, or should I say are, he's in Texas while I'm in California :( Being that we are far from each other I'm having trust issues, insecurities more than I usually do when I'm attracted to someone. Even though we either Skype, text, and talk almost the whole day I feel like there are things that matter which he hasn't mentioned.It bugs me. 

Well I'll see what happens as I keep talking to him. Hopefully all turns out good :)

I MISSED YOU Xanga!

How do you let go of something that doesn't want to leave...?